Mrs. Universe

Have you ever found the perfect ice cream flavor?

Shampoo?

Perfume?

Shade of foundation?

Only to have it be discontinued a couple weeks into your newfound bliss?

This seems to happen to me on the regular. Ben and Jerry's fossil fuel ice cream. Gone. Coach Poppy perfume. Currently being phased out of stores. 

I get this horrific thought when these things happen, "but I like it! Why would they get rid of it?!"

Like the entire company revolves around my interest in a product. Ben and Jerry sitting up in Vermont wearing tie dye organic cotton t shirts and Birkenstocks spitballing the new line of flavors like 

"Should we get rid of fossil fuel?"

"Is that the one with the little fudge dinosaurs?"

"Yeah the sales aren't doing too well, I guess people don't appreciate prehistoric shaped chocolate."

"No let's keep it. Because Kate appreciates it."

That didn't happen because this delightful treat is no longer in existence. 

The same thing happens when I DONT like things anymore. I stopped watching Glee long before Finn died (spoilers sorry), and it weirds me out that people still watch it. 

HELLO! Your queen has spoken! 

(Im awful)

A nasty byproduct of this mentality (which I am working on bt-dubs) is that I neglect to think about other people's happiness around me. 

I'm happy with my kids and our daily interactions so they must be happy too, right?

I'm happy with my marriage and the relationship Husband and I are cultivating so he's in wedded blissville too, right?

The thing is, I have no idea. I mean, I'm not being served divorce papers and my kids aren't screaming that I'm the worst mom ever, but that doesn't mean that they're as content as I am.

 I'm reading a book where the main character doesn't know if her husband has left her for good, or if he's just taking a trip to visit his family. I keep thinking how does someone get to that point?! You don't KNOW if your husband has left you? That seems like a fairly important point of discussion! However, if someone is so caught up in their own preferences, opinions, and universe, would they even know the discussion is being had until it's too late?

I'm working on a thing to help expand my little field of vision to include not only my nuclear family, but the whole world around me. It's almost finished, and I'm excited to share the results with you guys*. 

*meaning my mom and possibly Husband

In the words of one of my favorite hymns "then wake up and do something more, than dream of your mansions above"

Let's set our alarms and wake up.